I am only a flicker of a flame now, Popping harmlessly but I will grow. There is fuel for fires so mighty No city lights could compete with their glow - And oh yes this harmless flicker Will rise powerful and tall, Searching the corrupt and the greedy, With longing to devour them all.
Regret is a debt I fight, Resisting bankruptcy with its persistence. There will be times that could have been better, And questionable decisions galore; I'm not one to gamble, but I bet There's nothing to be gained From carrying regret.
I can feel walls building themselves up 'round me of their own volition. If you find yourself kept away by them, well, They can't be scaled but take comfort in knowing I didn't build them intentionally. Here and there truths have clicked That require self preservation: There's no circle of friends standing by to have… Continue reading Walls
Tone-deaf and tired, but I remember You're a flute, your music sweet, I remember how you taste And how with you I felt complete. It's funny how some say the pills Fill in the cracks and leave them feeling Nothing - soulless zombies, Emotions and hearts congealing, While all I can do is remember How… Continue reading Not Doing So Well
I'm not done yet. I've spent Some time reflecting On notions and moments Perhaps best forgotten & I've forgiven, So many and on numerous occasions; I'm not done yet. The older I get, the less I care If what I say offends you - I can only speak to my own truth & in turn… Continue reading I’m Not Done Yet
Like the paint on my ceiling, I'm chipped and I'm peeling, Not sure all I'm feeling Is more than a lie. I've lain low to hide me From what lives inside me, But I can't abide me; I just want to die. It's fine if you leave, now, There's nothing, no nothing, left here to… Continue reading SET FREE
Battered Beyond recognition, Self bartered For microscopic slivers Of Hope; Crossroads aren't places. They are events and I'm scarred by their gnarled demands: Choose! Though neither evil is lesser. It'll all be over soon. I dreamed I had wings. From above, I could see which direction Led to sanctuary, Then I woke, still broken from… Continue reading Another Splinter
I've got that weird, not-quite-myself, slightly surreal feeling that typically precedes a mood shift. Due to circumstances outside of my control, I'm out of a couple of medications that help me remain on a somewhat even keel; I've been dealing with insomnia, fatigue and heightened emotions all week. Oh, bipolar disorder, how nice to be… Continue reading Swing
This flesh where I reside, Heavy such that breath at times Resists my bluing lips, My gasping lungs; Black dots float before my eyes. They look like you, like you looked The day you left: some dark winged beast Taken to sky's grey, Abrupt with no goodbye... This flesh where I reside Radiates its scars,… Continue reading I Remember Love
Chills born of exhaustion Fondle my curves, my hollows, Intimate quaking, involuntary Shudder, shaking follows, Hot bath no match for internal ice; Reddened flesh - yet no warmth within, I haven't slept in days Again.